Sorry about the drama. It was... it was an emotional decision, and I didn't handle it well. So yeah, I'm sorry. And I'm here to apologize, and to say thanks, and to explain a little.
But I'm not back.
See, I realized something. This lj--this is somebody I used to be. And I can't be that guy anymore. He's poison, and it's killing me to try to pretend to be him.
So even though I'm going to miss this guy, and this journal, I've got to let go of this. I can't hate him, and I can't kill him. He doesn't deserve to be expunged from the record, even if for a while I thought he did.
But I can't be him either. So I'm just going to leave him here for now and move on.
I'll be around, you know. I'm not going into hiding. I'm good, everything's good. I just won't be here.
But don't feel like you have to come find me unless you want to, and don't... expect things to be the same. They're not the same.
I'm not the same.
I love you guys.